As we were making dinner and cleaning house, I did the inevitable and placed the stick on the side of the sink and went on with cooking dinner.
Only a few minutes later, Chad ran into the bathroom. As I was sheepishly walking in the same direction, he yelled out "Its Positive!" My body swung back up against the hallway wall in shock and my loving husband reached out and hugged me tight. I couldn't believe it. Positive, how in the heck did that happen?!? He can't believe it. The smile on this man's face is from ear to ear. Now remember, we got the value pack so I started downing great amounts of any liquid possible in order to take another run at it. Obviously, the sticks weren't lying to me. I felt so young and so old all in the same moment. Standing there in my bright lime green Victoria Secret sweatpants that said PINK on the butt - I loved them but they seemed so juvenile all of a sudden. I was a 30 year old women, married and now pregnant.
Okay, okay, don't get me wrong, this wasn't a bad thing by any means. God only knows how much I couldn't wait to have a little rugrat running around with Chad's smile and reddish blond hair. However, I had patience to wait another year to get more settled, more money in the bank, maybe even a bigger house.
There were a few things to figure out between this important date and the next one. First of all, we didn't have insurance. Pregnancy is a pre-existing condition. It was looking hopeless. We decided to apply for a couple different government insurance plans but just my income alone was over the amount they allowed. The middle class is forgotten when it comes to certain areas of the government...we weren't looking for a hand out but this was our last hope for insurance because having a baby is pricey these days.
Since we didn't have insurance still then we looked into ways to keep the costs down.
I come from a family of "natural birthers" so I figured I would just jump on the band wagon and take it even further by having the baby at a birthing center. Hey, why not. It was to save on expenses and I could use a mid-wife. Our OB-GYN allowed us to pay on a payment plan and get a discount for paying cash so we went that route as well.
Then it was a day we had been waiting for...our 1st sonogram...we were going to find out what sex our healthy baby was going to be. Another life change.
Don't try to make plans because you aren't in control of your own life. God is in control and he had other plans for us.